when the weird gets turned on,
is when the weird get weirder...
this was the last snap i shot in the cemetery yesterday. i shot a great piece of video too but the setting on the camera was set to low resolution so no one is going to see that. it just means that i have to go back this evening to shoot it again. properly. the day has been uncomfortable so far. try as hard as you can to hide and avoid things in life that you don't want to face, energy from places outside still creeps in. all the same, it's been very low key in comparison to how bad it could have been and my mind is rather at ease.
my plans for tonight have changed. i just can't see going to a baseball game alone. and until about 3 hours ago i had no idea of who i could possibly have gone with. now i know who i could have gone with and i will possibly ask him about going with me to a REAL baseball game to see the Oakland Athletics play, sometime in the next two weeks.
no, for today's celebration i need to be in my power place. i need to be back in the cemetery. so much has been shifting in my consciousness since i've started the social network shutdown. my power is coming back to me. i mean that most literally. all the energy that i've been pushing out into the outer spaces that was always unmet, i'm now corralling and and starting to find new abilities to focus mentally on projects that i've been wanting to do for a long time. i'm pulling back into writing again. that's a huge one though and is going to take a lot of time to figure out what i'm going to write. the fact that i'm at least blogging more, and writing poetry. yes, i've tapped into a poetry muse and can write poetry spontaneously right now... these are good signs.
but spirit is being touched. i'm starting to hear my voices again. my muses, yes,... i know, they are always around and can be petitioned upon for specific tasks, like praying to Ganeshwar for a specific blessing or boon, but i'm actually starting to get back to having conversations with my muses again. shutting out the chatter of the social networks is freeing up my mind to hear the inner voices of my inner inspirations and guides. the important people that i need to stay connected to from the sn's will be there. it's the chaff that has to be burned off...
it has to be a wildfire in my life though. it has to be an obliteration or i will not be challenged enough to recognize full structural change.
i'm so tired though. i wish i could sleep for a week and wake up some place new. that won't happen. okay, i need to end now because it's getting late and i need to jet over to oakland for my party.
i bought something for myself today ;)
my plans for tonight have changed. i just can't see going to a baseball game alone. and until about 3 hours ago i had no idea of who i could possibly have gone with. now i know who i could have gone with and i will possibly ask him about going with me to a REAL baseball game to see the Oakland Athletics play, sometime in the next two weeks.
no, for today's celebration i need to be in my power place. i need to be back in the cemetery. so much has been shifting in my consciousness since i've started the social network shutdown. my power is coming back to me. i mean that most literally. all the energy that i've been pushing out into the outer spaces that was always unmet, i'm now corralling and and starting to find new abilities to focus mentally on projects that i've been wanting to do for a long time. i'm pulling back into writing again. that's a huge one though and is going to take a lot of time to figure out what i'm going to write. the fact that i'm at least blogging more, and writing poetry. yes, i've tapped into a poetry muse and can write poetry spontaneously right now... these are good signs.
but spirit is being touched. i'm starting to hear my voices again. my muses, yes,... i know, they are always around and can be petitioned upon for specific tasks, like praying to Ganeshwar for a specific blessing or boon, but i'm actually starting to get back to having conversations with my muses again. shutting out the chatter of the social networks is freeing up my mind to hear the inner voices of my inner inspirations and guides. the important people that i need to stay connected to from the sn's will be there. it's the chaff that has to be burned off...
it has to be a wildfire in my life though. it has to be an obliteration or i will not be challenged enough to recognize full structural change.
i'm so tired though. i wish i could sleep for a week and wake up some place new. that won't happen. okay, i need to end now because it's getting late and i need to jet over to oakland for my party.
i bought something for myself today ;)
i've already found someone who will wear it for me. i've got such a special life <3
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