deep sleep of the soul, needed/obtained
Weird night/morning... started to recognize my pattern of having sleepless nights (didn't get to sleep until 5:30am yesterday). I know that this is a clear and definite sign of my entering a hypo-manic state of mind/life which will feel good and active and focused, but will end up in depression. So tonight I decided to stem the tide of having another night like last night and took a pill to get me to sleep. It worked, sort of ... I slept hard and deep from 10pm-ish until 3:30am... missed my midnight starting time for this daily journal, but that's fine because I'm here now doing this. I was having deep thoughts before I fell into sleep last night, about not taking life seriously enough and not working hard enough about doing all that I could be doing with my life... thinking that tomorrow (today) I'll start to work harder, that I'll start journaling again to get down into the nitty gritty crevices of where my dark secrets are buried, and where my secret powers are ...