THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

 For how powerful my meditation experiences have been as of late, one would think that I'd want to do nothing other than spend my entire day meditating because the experiences I've been having are so strong. I keep telling Scarlett about this over, and over that things are happening inside my meditations that I've never experienced before and that my own mind is blown by the surprises I feel happening and being revealed to me. Yet here I sit now in front of this machine, jotting down notes that can in no way translate what it is I just felt while meditating just a few short moments ago. I sat in my meditation chair, not having any pre-formed intent about what I wanted to explore or deliver. No one has asked for healings as of late, but there are two elderly men that I know of that need healings, so I did, at the end of this experience deliver some of the energy that I acquired to them. But those "healings" were not even close to the work I do when I have the inten...

 So I did something a bit unusually different the other day. I did a meditative trance healing for a former version of myself. I have this understanding that I do not (we, none of us do) live in just this one seemingly present reality. This reality that I see myself living in is like the dream that I am awake in while I'm sleeping.  It's only one facet of the complex nature of my immortal soul. When I, this body in this reality am sleeping, and then enter into dream activities, perhaps those other versions of "me" that I see are just as real as this one here seems to be. I live just as hard and with as much focus in those dream-me realities as I do in this one. Its just that this one is what has captured the majority of my conscious awareness. In this healing I performed I wanted to forgive versions of myself that were injured emotionally in their alternate dimensions, because after all, they are part of what make up my current reality. I wanted to heal the broken art...

 Watched THE BANSHEES OF INISHFREE last night and have had my emotions stirred up in so many ways by this film. First pain I felt was of not being able to watch this movie with the person responsible for my having any interest in Ireland at all, Aine, who passed away nearly one year ago. I feel that this new film dethrones THE FIELD as the penultimate film drama that depicts the hard life that men live in the remote regions of Ireland. This film is a powder-keg of drama, as well as spectacular film making that is sure to stir deep residual unprocessed emotions in many members of the soul collective here on earth. It's pushed itself deep into my heart tho and I'm not yet aware of all that it's identifying inside myself. This film will take years for me to solve.  Something else this makes me reflect upon is the troubled friendship I have with an old high school buddy that I had a falling out with over the last year. He and I started sending texts back and forth after the New...

 New year, new hope, new holes to dig out of too. This, this right now, this today, this month... I am face to face with the unknown because for the first time that I can remember, maybe ever, I don't have an assurance of how I'm going to get thru this month monetarily. For literally ever I have always felt a safety net around me knowing that there was going to be enough money to carry me through until the next month. But now, due to the raising costs of EVERYTHING (national inflation), that safety net has been shrinking, and well, NOW it has shrunk into a noose around my neck/wallet. Today is the 5th day of the month and I've gotten my first warning from my bank that I have insufficient funds to meet my transaction needs. I have been overdrawn before, but this is bigger and deeper. This is the raw face of God staring me down saying, "What are you going to do now, dude?" With the ongoing journey of coming to understand and bring into reality the balance of my astr...

 Well, I gave up on doing New Moon intentions about a year ago. My thoughts just aren't organized enough to think about what it is I need (to manifest) in my life, I never write down what my intentions were, so later if anything did happen, or change, I didn't have a record to prove that it worked... and overall, I'm just pretty much okay with things happening the ways that they do. So why am I thinking about trying it again, now, today? Maybe because I've started listening to an astrologer that makes more sense to me, and who moves me more on an intellectual basis... A thinking man's/woman's astrologer... he didn't even suggest the idea of setting intentions with this new moon (that occurred around 3pm yesterday)... but something arose inside me making me feel like it might be worth trying... So here's what I'm going to do. And it's different than just making a list of wishes... I'm just descending into my heart (with my consciousness) to li...

 Wow, something really has changed, in my world and life, at least. Today I feel such a deep feeling in my bones of solidity and anchored presence. It's like all the years of yearning for things to be better are starting to develop and manifest. I just have this newfound sense of being in the right place at the right time and I feel assured more than ever, that everything really is going to work out fine. I'm not sure how I want to expound on these sensations I'm experiencing... Firstly though, I have to state that getting rehired at Whole Foods feels like one of the best chess moves I've made with my life and intentions in a very long time. I can't wait to see what will begin to happen once I start my official hours working there tomorrow morning. Backing up a few steps, I do need to give credit to the solidity of my meditation practice now. It's always been an exciting form of self-care for me, to meditate when it's convenient, but now it's advanced to...

 I told you a few posts back that I took Lorie Ladd's ASTRAL TRAVEL course, didn't I? I think I did. I hope I did. I'm astral traveling several times a day now. I think I've done it already 4 times today. I probably should keep a very detailed journal of these experiences, but I can't slip into a strong enough mental focus yet to do it as well as I could. I'm going to detail a few of the experiences here. I like writing them out here because of the few regular readers I have, they would not hear about this if I were to privately journal them. These aren't really experiences that will benefit non-practitioners... they may seem interesting, but I dunno. If nobody says they want to hear more after this post, I will probably shift to privately journaling them. So going in reverse order from the latest experience I had today, well, let me begin with the guided meditation that Lorie led today. This was not an astral traveling experience. Lorie led us all, in visua...

 So my son and his family were in town for a few days, here to attend his mother's memorial service, and they have now returned home to where they live in northwestern Minnesota. They are a very popular family and were in high demand for visitations with the dozens of people they know that reside here in the Bay Area... so as it turns out, I did not get to spend a whole lot of time with them. Which is probably a rather good thing because my grandson is a living dynamo, a perpetual motion machine if you will... and he contains a magneto that draws my full attention to try to keep up with him... this means that I run, a LOT to keep up with him. I've never seen a living thing that has all the energy and determination to NOT REST like he exhibits. Two afternoons of playing with him WORE ME OUT, and I needed a day of rest to recover from him each time. The day they left I had terribly painful physical symptoms. I woke up with an unworldly amount of pain in my stomach. I cannot remem...

 Now, this is getting to the interesting stage, where, via my attempted dedication to blog daily, I'm not sure what it is that I want to talk about today. The thing most prevalent on my mind are the hours of my day that I spend efforts in raising my consciousness. I do this through a couple of different activities. Primarily, meditation. On a good day, I'll sit in silent meditation for 20-30 minutes. On GREAT days, like yesterday I will meditate for an hour or longer.  There are different activities that I consider to qualify as meditation. Straight, sitting in a chair, eyes closed meditation is my favorite and usually most powerful style. I learned how to do this type of meditation from Gurumayi Chidvilasanda during the years that I was involved with Siddha Yoga. If it weren't for those (10) years of practice, I would really struggle with learning how to do deep, deep meditation like this these days. I know meditation is all the buzz these days, and almost everyone seems i...

 This has been a month barren of joy. For how joyful my birthday month has been over the past many, many years, I'm quite surprised that the month I usually experience the greatest joy in has been so dismal. I can attribute it to many things; my mother not being here to celebrate it with for one. Also, my son just moved his family out of state 3 weeks ago, so those are two very large components of my life that I don't get to interact with anymore. More so I guess giving credit to the world changes occurring in this bizarre year of 2020 deserves mentioning too. My spiritual evolution has been tantamount this year, so I am on the fence about believing that the sadness and disconnect I am feeling is not part of the bigger picture of how I am a different being now than I was this time last year. I am stronger and more enlightened spiritually than I perhaps ever been in this life, yet for what I have to show as developments and advancements in the physical world as a benefit of beco...

Really thought we were going to be super-blessed this year and get thru the whole Summer/Autumn without any wildfires, but oh no, that was wrong to think we were safe. Here it is now, the end of October and the fires have begun again. I've had a theory floating in my mind about how it's possible to pray to the Earth, and to Archangels that govern the weather systems to influence them to calm things down. I've utilized prayer to reach these forces in years past and have believed that I've seen results come from these spiritual communications. This year I've been experimenting with just sending Reiki to the Earth while I meditate, to keep her calm from having earthquakes, but it's a sporadic practice. I think that maybe if I were to genuinely make a regular daily effort, the results might be more consistent. I'm sure that there are other spiritually awakened humans that do a similar practice of praying for the Earth and weather, and that collectively, we all...

I've had influxes of so many different types of spiritual energies and belief systems infiltrate my mind and body in this lifetime, it sort of surprises me that I found yet another system to tap into. There is a lot of talk and hype going on around the world about the wonders of Reiki, but not so much that on it's own, it would have convinced me to seek out joining it on my own. If it had not been for the enthusiasm of my best friend, and her kindness, I probably would not have jumped into the boat with all the other Reiki-ers right now either. I'm not at a stage in my life where I'm all gung-ho about being a healer or getting healed right now. Not on the surface of my mind at least. Not in any sense of urgency or bubbling excitement like I have been at times in the past. Mind you, I do want to experience more joy in my life, and less pain in my body, and less confusion in my mind... And from what I've been experiencing with the self-application of Reiki energy so f...

This was the first time that I've ever experienced this type of healing meditation. I've listened to recordings of these bowls on CD for years, but have never felt the effects on my body like I did tonight. I sat in the front row as close to the bowls as I could be. I sat with as straight a back as I was able to for as long as I could. I did not practice deep breathing, mainly because that's something that I'm just not doing right now. One thing I think that's missing from this guys technique (haha I'm a critic right off the bat) is that he doesn't make it a guided meditation, telling us which chakras are being affected by the different toned bowls... I'd just like to be able to do my own visualizations of working with corresponding chakras while a certain bowl is working on that chakra. In the end result, I don't think that for now that this is necessary. Maybe in the future, I'll find someone that does do that. I'm just mentioning this ...

Tattwa cards are a meditation tool created by members of the Golden Dawn organization. I'm just starting to experiment using them when I meditate. They are reported to be a tool offering quickest access to the astral realms. I made a random selection from the deck tonight and began a meditation that only lasted about 10 minutes. So, you focus without blinking on the image on the card for as long as you can. I repeated my guru's mantra, Om Namah Shivaya while I focused on the image, to help keep my mind from wandering. I let the rule of "not blinking" be my guideline for when to become able to close my eyes and "meditate". When I reached that point I simply let go of the card and closed my eyes. I did not get a very strong representation of the card's image inside my inner version, so I just accepted an energy representation of its presence. I let it fill the full, inner space of my mind's eye. I approached it, and entered it. This is when thing...

I'm getting my meditation routine back in order. I had slacked off from doing my two meditations a day over this past weekend. I'm so glad at how this is finally becoming a regular practice in my life! So I started to read a book about "remote viewing" (RV) yesterday. It's something that I've been curious about learning how to do for a long time, but all the literature I've seen before makes it sound like a lot of very disciplined work is needed and I've given up trying before I even start. So when I was meditating tonight, my mind was wandering just a little bit and I had a thought where I wondered if I could find out if going to San Francisco tomorrow night would be a safe venture for me. It was a weakly powered, wandering thought. I was not intent on finding out the answer, but a vision arose. I saw a picture of the earth from distant space. Floating in space, not too far from earth I saw a group of angels and they had computer-like screens th...

I've known about floatation tanks for a couple decades but never ever thought I'd get an opportunity to use one. I always thought I'd have to go through a college/university research program to get access to one. Little did I know that when I signed up for a month of yoga classes at Yoga Fusion in San Ramon that I would find out that the owner had a flotation tank that he rents out hourly at his cottage in Danville. As soon as I heard about it, I signed up for two, one hour sessions. Today, two months later I finally had my first experience. I had a little bit of trepidation about the experience, but overall I knew I was going to be okay and not freak out. Getting into the tank and closing the door by myself was the most difficult aspect of it. You go into a space of total darkness. If I were to have a claustrophobic freak-out it would have happened right then. It didn't. I was surprised at the experience of floating so easily. I had never been in a body of water like...

So I discovered a new "teacher" the other day. Her name is Roberta Grimes. I heard her talking on Coast To Coast AM. Her area of expertise is communicating with the dead, as well as some other areas. I don't want this posting to be only about her - because she has done other things in her life that I want to delve into as well. She really pushes the point that it is possible to speak to our deceased ancestors. I've known this for awhile but never had a sense of confidence instilled into me the way Roberta did so for me. So, last night I thought about which deceased ancestor I should try to reach, and quickly I decided on my cousin Jade - she died a little over two years ago. (Her mother died less than a year ago - I will say more about her in a bit.) I've suspected that Jade has been available to me as a spirit guide - but never had any convincing experiences which gave me assurance that she indeed was. So I meditated last night with the intent of finding he...

Past lives, that is. When I was at Intuitive Way, one of their main focuses was about reading past life information for people. We were taught to read them by getting intuitive (clairvoyant) impressions from their aura (and chakras). We were not taught how to read our own, personal past lives though. By that I mean that I was not taught how to read my own past lives. I could read the past lives of a classmate though. So I want to find out how to read my own past life information. And I've found some literature that describes how to do it. It's not all that complicated to do either. You basically need to be able to enter into a trance state, and then follow some guided visualizations to get you into the right place to find that information. I tried doing this the past two nights. The first time I tried it I specifically wanted to find out past life info about my very close friend and I. I wanted to see what we were in past lives together. Clear as day, I got to the right pla...

I spent the last 5 years nurturing a very powerful friendship with a young woman half my own age. She literally became the best friend I've had since I left Santa Cruz when I last lived there in 1995. We went through a lot of changes, she and I, during these five years. There were times when we were extremely close and spoke to each other every single day, and then there were times when we would vanish into our separate cocoons of isolative depression for months. We learned a lot of things together too. This was one of the highlights of our friendship, how we would discover something new that we wanted to learn to do, and we would practice developing these new skills together. Another thing that was powerful about our friendship was how dynamic it was. We adapted to what was going on in the other person's life. I don't want to spend a whole lot of time going into details of what I'm talking about, that's not what this post is about. I want to talk about changes I...

I started a new meditation class at a place that teaches people how to develop their clairvoyant abilities. Their methods are based on the practices used at The Berkeley Psychic Institute. I learned how to meditate a different way through my association with the teachings of Gurumayi Chidvilasananda and the path of Siddha Yoga. This new meditation style is very different. I just want to make some notes here about the experience I had in my class tonight. One of the goals tonight was for us to get in touch with one of our spiritual guides. I have many that I have interactions with, but the primary and supreme guide I've had awareness of for most of my life is a guardian angel. It's one being with three facets, a triune being, and I do believe it is an actual heavenly angel. I may tell more about how I came to discover this being in another posting - I may have written about it long ago too. Anyway, this being told me before that it's name is Kriskeon, and I have never forg...