THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

i took this photo of the two of us almost exactly one year ago, on March 7 2007. within days of entering this door to bliss my world collapsed.

i don't get it for a long time when someone is interested in me. it doesn't happen often enough for me to understand the mechanics of how someone shows "signs" of being interested in me. after i finally got it and i started to spend time around her it became more clear, what her signs were. it had been going on for weeks though, and i just didn't know. once it became clear i became over enthusiastic. i think that is what must have been the reason for the breakdown that we suffered. she freaked out though, which i don't really understand. it was ugly and even now trying to recall just enough of it all to make a story to tell you makes waves of awfulness wash over my heart. it was a bad enough breakdown of a friendship that could have been a relationship that makes me even more frightful of trusting the path of romance ever again. but she, Miss M, was the first genuine 18 year old i became involved with. ever. i thought she was probably 22 and was surprised to l...