THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

So I was Googling "how to become your own muse" and came across an interesting blog. The writer had a very interesting entry about this actual matter. How to become the source of one's own inspiration for whatever creative processes they partake in. I don't feel like linking it here, but I want to mention one thing he said was good to do, and that is to take time to write something when you first wake up in the morning. To write about anything and everything that is on your mind. He got the idea from writer, Julia Cameon, who wrote the book "The Artists Way"... So I think that this is basically what I do in ths blog, write about whatever is on my mind. But it's so undisciplined and irregular. Maybe if I were to start making myself write a "Morning Page" here everyday, and not restrict myself to niceties - I used to write a lot more freely about my thoughts and ideas in this blog, but I know as of late I've been much more restrained from t...

So a weird thing happened... November 1st arrived, and even though I had zero plans to participate in Nanowrimo this year, I found myself in a cafe, writing. Writing opening pages to a brand new Nanowrimo novel. It was like physical memory compelled me to obey my inner instincts. Bizarre, eh? Hahaha, I'm so glad it happened, because I did actually have some ideas earlier this summer about a new project I wanted to write but never got past just jotting down a few notes and ideas. Today I've completed three days of writing the minimum daily requirement, so that's a positive sign!

I have not felt the October-spirit of Halloween for a very long time. Other than driving around neighborhoods with my mom to look at how other people decorated their homes, I have not participated in Halloween activities since my son was a young boy. This is not because I do not enjoy this holiday and this season. It's because of a lack of connection I feel with other people that I can share the experience with. I don't dress up on the 31st. I don't give out candy. I don't make my house look haunted (it already looks haunted, and probably IS haunted). And I don't go to Halloween parties. I don't think I've ever been to a Halloween party. So there's that... Contrarily, I pretty much celebrate the spirit and energy of Halloween-ish things every day of my life. I watch at least one horror film or paranormal TV show a day. I love being in cemeteries. I do rituals to heal my dead ancestors. I'm fascinated with gothic art and symbols of death. I spent a ...

I really felt like I could come here (in my blog) and write everyday, when I said that last week, but due to a job I had, which I'll speak a little bit about here, I felt incapable of focusing enough to write, anything. So I make extra money on the side doing "gig jobs". I primarily work for Door Dash, which I find highly enjoyable to do. The work feels so freeing, emotionally and structurally, I only work when I want to. For a slacker like me, it's such a perfect job. And I can literally make money instantly. I just finished working a 3 hour shift today (lunchtime) and made $50 which I instantly deposited into my bank account. The other gig job I do is pet sitting and dog walking. I did this for about a month until I became fed up with it. The pay is low, VERY low in comparison, and the stress level is VERY HIGH. The job I had this weekend, was taking care of 3 very adorable dogs in the house of an old high school friend. The community was under a severe weather wa...

Really thought we were going to be super-blessed this year and get thru the whole Summer/Autumn without any wildfires, but oh no, that was wrong to think we were safe. Here it is now, the end of October and the fires have begun again. I've had a theory floating in my mind about how it's possible to pray to the Earth, and to Archangels that govern the weather systems to influence them to calm things down. I've utilized prayer to reach these forces in years past and have believed that I've seen results come from these spiritual communications. This year I've been experimenting with just sending Reiki to the Earth while I meditate, to keep her calm from having earthquakes, but it's a sporadic practice. I think that maybe if I were to genuinely make a regular daily effort, the results might be more consistent. I'm sure that there are other spiritually awakened humans that do a similar practice of praying for the Earth and weather, and that collectively, we all...

Wow, nearly a year since I last wrote something here. That's really sad. I did try to write something to post here a couple months ago but there were technical difficulties in transferring the text from Google Docs to blogger, and my text would not display. Some issue with the display qualities of my blogger account that I'm to burnt out to try and fix. So now I'm typing this in by hand. What you see is what you get. So why am I writing here today? Because I miss writing. I miss writing for the sake of being able to get outside of my head and explain things to myself. Mainly. But I also miss writing creatively. And what i'm thinking is perhaps if I start writing here regularly again, maybe it'll oil my gears enough to reawaken the joy of writing for me. Not really sure about what I want to talk about today. Didn't really feel a burning need to talk about anything important. Just wanted to talk. One thing that's been on my mind recently is my health. I...