THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

I had a rather profound aura reading at Intuitive Way (IW) last night. I say it may be the last reading I'll have for awhile because I'm moving into a new phase of the training where "energy readings" will be offered instead of "free readings" like I received in the first 4 months of my training. I think I'm going to miss these readings because they are so personally enlightening. They have become clearer and more pertinent as I've advanced in the training, but now, in the next phases of my training, I'm going to learn the skills of giving readings. So perhaps I'll also become able to read myself. The Reading: I haven't received my audio recording of the reading yet so I'm writing these notes from memory. A lot of shadowy energy from my ancestors appeared last night. In the first layer of my aura a bold shadow energy from my father's mother appeared (Doris Driscoll) and she was very frustrated with me over the matter of me not...

So one thing they keep finding in my aura readings is that creativity is one of the main purposes tied to why I'm alive. I'll attest to the fact and idea that my happiest experiences in life are when I'm being artistically creative. I feel the most fulfilled creating things. That they keep seeing underlying surges of potential for new creative expressions makes me hope that there will be new projects that I'll become involved with. I have some ideas of things I want to do, but for the most part my creativity feels pretty subdued these days. The height of my creative output ended around 4 or 5 years ago when I stopped doing the Cemetery Girl photography project. I tried to shift back into working on my novel after that, but that project is a painful struggle I cannot bring myself to finish. Even now, while I sit here writing this I feel that I should be working on the novel. It just feels like something that I'm never going to complete. There are so many things tha...

I want to start a small journal where I can talk about the experiences I'm having at Intuitive Way, where I'm developing my psychic abilities and clairvoyant skills. I've been taking classes here for 14 weeks now and have been having quite profound experiences. When I took my first class here called "Meditation 1" I was introduced to meditation techniques that were very different than the ways in which I was taught to meditate at Gurumayi's Siddha Yoga ashram (in Oakland). There is no central point of focus in this psychic meditation like there was in the ashram - where we were taught to discover that God was the center of reality and that it/God dwelled inside each of our own hearts. Now I am being taught mechanical methods of meditation that enable my psychic sensitivities to "see" the condition of my energetic being "more clearly". I believe that my experiences now would not be as powerful as they are if it had not been for my previo...