THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

 Having a weird thought / idea right now ... And I bet it's something that a lot of people have figured out sooner than I have. When you create dependencies on people in the world, you give away your power. You look to others to feed you something that you feel unable to manifest yourself. And here's where I'm feeling this sharp stab come from. I have so few friends as it is (luckily, one of these friends REALLY understands me)... and I've tried to be a good friend, and to be of use to others in ways that I would hope to be reciprocated..  Okay, so here's where I'm seeing the holes in this objective of having friends. You either need to surround yourself with people that are so closely of like mind and common interest, people that are weird and thrive on the kinds of activities and ideas that motivate you, or else your going to feel incomplete. If you are a weirdo and all of your friends are normal, you're just going to appear as a circus clown to them. They...

I'm too uncomfortable emotionally this week to say exactly what I want to say here, right now, so this will be brief and incoherent due to a lack of detail... So "Lorie" is doing her 3 mini-sessions tomorrow. I signed in and requested to be considered for one of those 3 positions, as did over 100 other people. She consults with her spirit guides about who to select for these "sessions". But she also dropped hints last time, a month ago, when she did the July sessions that she likes to prioritize men in the selection process - since there are so few men in the group. I've seen about 3 different men attend her live sessions, compared to the 200-400 women that attend. So I became proud thinking that I'd be sure to be selected for this months offering. When I reviewed the list of people that requested to be included, I was the only man in the list. So between Sunday and tonight, I patted myself on the back thinking that I was a shoe-in for being chosen. Now,...