THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

Relatively, I am not sad these days. It seems that as I keep up a regular practice of meditation - that is meditating for at least 15 minutes, once a day - I am able to refresh my spirit enough to cast off the creeping shadows of sadness and depression that approach my consciousness every day. There are things happening in and around about my life that could lead to a pretty strong episode of depression but the joy that clearing my energy via meditation is relatively saving my life right now. Fuuny, but I thought that I'd spend my time writing this blog energy talking about the things that are not going right that could bring on a depressive episode - but I didn't. I jumped right to the good part of the story and talked about what is working. I'm kinda proud of myself for doing that. And happy that this happened. All the same, just for the sake of clarity and record, I do want to talk about these things because they are not going to go away on their own, not very easily a...

TEASER: to read the entirety of this very long blog entry you must follow this link to the blog itself. once there, you can listen to music with the new FineTunes player i installed, watch video previews of the upcoming movie SUPERBAD, and leave tags on my new tag board. you can also check the status of my webcam - which i am turning on an awful lot this week. i slept strangely this morning, emotions and body felings affected by the places my dreams took me. fell asleep between 2:30 & 3am and woke up around 9:30. it is so nice to be dreaming again but it is strange how the places we visit andthe things we see ourselves do in our dreamworlds can affect the way our emotions feel when we wake up. i think the overall experience i had in the three or four somewhat epic dreams i had this morning was of rejection. 30 minutes ago as i came out of these dreams i debated how much personal detail i would reveal as there were real life characters in the dreams, and now that i am sitting here ...