re'ing the reassessments...
this has been a strange year. surviving my mom's survival of a second round of cancer is proof that the worse tht can be thrown at us is manageable. then i strode forth and made a new discovery of a place on earth that i feel could be a happy place to live the rest of my life, with a person that i thought could help me make it there, who could make the journey there quick, and the living with there, better. cancer didn't destroy my chances, but this person not being able to commit to me has broken me. i'm not giving up on my idea and desire to move to and live in Portland, but i need to find new forces to align with to get me there. i've parted ways with this person before, never quite the way that we are this time. usually i upset her from being too demading of her time and personality. this time she abandoned me, and plans we made too many times, and i've felt my trust and hope in her evaporate... from the position of being someone that i can work with. even if ...