THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

 Wow, something really has changed, in my world and life, at least. Today I feel such a deep feeling in my bones of solidity and anchored presence. It's like all the years of yearning for things to be better are starting to develop and manifest. I just have this newfound sense of being in the right place at the right time and I feel assured more than ever, that everything really is going to work out fine. I'm not sure how I want to expound on these sensations I'm experiencing... Firstly though, I have to state that getting rehired at Whole Foods feels like one of the best chess moves I've made with my life and intentions in a very long time. I can't wait to see what will begin to happen once I start my official hours working there tomorrow morning. Backing up a few steps, I do need to give credit to the solidity of my meditation practice now. It's always been an exciting form of self-care for me, to meditate when it's convenient, but now it's advanced to...

 I had odd feelings rise up these past couple of days before the moon went full early this morning. When I was driving home from the pet sitting job I did last week, I had a strange sense of feeling like, well, that's the end of that line of work. I have only two, weekend assignments left on my calendar. All of the other jobs scheduled through December are now canceled, and no one new has approached me to sit for them. Which is very strange for this time of year. BUT, something else has arisen to fill that space... more on that in a moment. Driving home that night I also felt the hugeness of how much I really do miss my mom, and Aine... and Billy and the grandkids... getting older, with fewer people in your life, fewer anchors of those that love and trust and somewhat know you the best, it's an adaptation I had never really thought about ahead of time before... Maybe this comes from having a smaller family... I have been missing people since early on though, so it's not ent...

 I watched two hours of a zoom conference today that was hosted by The Society for Scientific Exploration. The topic was Parapsychology. There were individuals speaking from various professional, and collegiate associations that do extensive research into the paranormal. I had so many thoughts run through my mind and jolts of psychic electricity bouncing around between my skull and my heart. One of the speakers was a noted Bay Area parapsychologist and college professor, Loyd Auerbach. I learned about it and first contacted Auerbach about 6 years ago. Back when Scarlett and I first started to attend HCH in Lafayette. Loyd had been teaching a workshop/classes about the paranormal and when I read the flier describing his abilities and what the classes were about, I decided that I had to sign up for it.  Turns out that the brochure I read was from the last time he taught the course, 2 years prior. But I was able to obtain his email address from the brochure and I wrote to him, as...

 I've had some updated adjustments happen to my consciousness regarding all the things I'm thinking about these days. One of my meditation tools that I need to remember to use more often is astral traveling. For right now, it's the most powerful method for me to get nearly instant answers to questions I'm struggling with. The great thing is that my AT journeys usually only take 3-5 minutes... sometimes they'll go longer, like 10-20 minutes if I'm in need of more involved healing or to get a larger template download. So I just did a 4-5 minute AT session to get some clarity about the mental rigamarole that I'm juggling now about this idea of going back to "legit job work"... So today, just from normal activities (dog walking, visiting a friend at the park) my body feels like it's been knocked around by a schoolyard bully. I have sore joints and my back has got sharp stabbing pains... nothing TOO unusual for my lifestyle... but it alerted me beca...

 So today I applied for ANOTHER job online... to work at Trader Joe's. Still have not heard anything from WF, and TJ says it may take 3 weeks before I'll hear from them. Thursday afternoon is my phone interview with the security company... Interestingly, I had a question-asking session with my pendulum just a few minutes ago... asked if I'll be offered a job at WF, or TJ, and the pendulum swung indifferently (which means that as of now, the answer is unknown). I then asked if I should keep playing the lotto game I've been obsessed with lately, and the pendulum immediately swung NO. The lottery is such a deep font of addictive, enjoyable fantasy thinking... the pleasure one gets from simply being able to imagine what one would do with such riches is practically orgasmic. It's a cheap thrill to toss a dollar into the "pool" and be allowed to "dream big"... Is it a waste of time doing this? Perhaps it genuinely is. I know I'm one day closer to t...

 So hey! I've applied for 2 different jobs in the past 2 days!! And I'm beginning to feel a tinge excited about the prospects. Although, I am also trembling a bit from fear that my resume shows too damaged of a persona for anyone to want to hire me... I have not heard anything from Whole Foods yet... Almost 2 full days have passed... I know that is not much time, but with all of the company's hoopla about how eager they are to hire new people, I anticipated being contacted immediately. One of my fears is that I have been blacklisted by the company because of how I quit my job (on the spot) when I worked for them back in 2015. That fear is part of what made me think and fear for all these years that they would never consider re-hiring me... during other phases when I felt curious urges about going back to work there again... Anyway, maybe I'll get a call from them tomorrow. Then today I applied for another "security guard" position in San Ramon. It's listed...

 Really do not have any pressing ideas or thought currents in my mind today... so let's just see where and what my fingers will unfold for us to think about here... I'm getting into a bit of rhythm with pet sitting assignments lately... I've been making enough money from these gigs to not have to Door Dash at all, which is a plus-plus... less expenditure of funds on gas is a big win, and also just not having to endure the stresses of doing food delivery; slow merchants, stressful traffic and difficult to deliver addresses are a great relief to not be suffering. The one thing I loved about DD'ing, was the freedom of being on the road and the essence of a feeling of being a purveyor of Reiki energies to the inhabitants of the neighborhoods I'd roll thru. That was a side benefit I manifested in my own mind, to make the work feel a bit more purposeful. Now I know that I do not have to be present in neighborhoods to be able to deliver Reiki...   But I'm still not mak...