i'm a stupid. not even a stooge. (as in iggy)

i don't think it would have mattered if i were still in the facebook or not. no one includes me in music chatter anymore at all. i think there is only one person in the world that even knows that i live for iggy, and he is pretty much dead to me. so today when i get the announcement from bandsintown.com that iggy and the stooges are playing in san francisco tonight and tomorrow night - my heart hit the floor but i was not surprised, and i have no instinct left to try to muster the strength or courage to buck up and go into the city tonight. i don't know what to do anymore to bring my music life back to life. other than do what i do, sitting in my room and listening in private to the webs. i miss the experience of live music so, so much.

i saw iggy once. 1977. Old Waldorf. San Francisco. front row (festival), face to face in his sweat. some experiences/memories aren't meant to be relived i suppose.