not gonna zoom, gonna sigil and divine, yeahhh

 Well, today is when HCH has its only in-person Reiki Clinic in Lafayette. Since the lock-down back in 2020 they have only been doing Reiki clinic online via Zoom meetings. I have only ever participated in one solitary Zoom meeting. It seems that most of the world has gladly adapted to using this method as a replacement for classroom/clinic setting type activities, and it's really odd for me to be one who adapts new technology so readily that I cannot acquiesce and jump on the bandwagon with everyone else, but I just cannot do it in my current living situation. The one time I partook in a meeting I did it in someone else's home where I had relative privacy, but even there it just did not fully resonate with me. It felt "wrong". Like maybe there is something wrong-fitting with the human soul to take part in communication this way. And then on top of it for this topic, the topic of doing personal healings for strangers, the public, its so depersonalized. So yeah, I don't and don't think I ever will partake in Zoom meetings, for any reason, but most especially NOT for healing or partaking in spiritual work/training. It may seem odd too that I have become that embraces "distance healing" as my main forte for my use of Reiki. I have only given a few people actual hands on Reiki in the past 3 years. But all the Reiki that I send to recipients from afar, I feel that it is so powerful on it's own that I may only continue to do this. Case in point, HCH is having an in person Reiki clinic tomorrow morning. Part of me wants to go and meet with other practitioners, one of which may be the woman that gave me my Reiki Master attunement. It would be a great and wonderful experience to meet her again and talk about how life has been. And I could very well determine to wake up early in the morning and drive over to Lafayette and join in. But a deeper compulsion is stirring inside my heart and this is that I would only go if my partner Scarlett were able to go too. And it seems that she will not be able to make it there tomorrow. Doing anything Reiki-related without Scarlett feels "wrong", for some reason. We are such a team this way... it's illogical in a way to say or think this way, but again, it's just how I feel. I feel this very strongly deep inside my heart. It's not a fear of going there without her. And it's not that I'm not capable of giving Reiki to others if she were not present. It's that if it were not for her, I would never have come to achieve the status of Reiki Master by my own doing. It's something we've done together since the very beginning of this journey. And I have so few cases or instances in my life of doing anything with anyone that this case feels like I need to be highly protective and guarded about. So yeah, I probably will not attend tomorrow, haha ;)

So today something dawned on me about my efforts to psychically discern the winning numbers for the California Lottery game called Daily 4. I've been trying to win this game using my psychic intuition for about 3 years now. Some days I come as close as having 3 correct numbers, but then the 4th number will be incorrect by only 1 digit. I've had that type of success for perhaps 60% of the drawings I've played. And then I stopped playing for many, many months. Well, I started playing again a couple weeks ago. In the beginning my "guesses" were very far off from being correct, but yesterday I had 1 number right and the other 3 were just 1 digit off. Today it occurred to me that there's another bit of "magic" I could use and that is to create a "sigil" for the purpose of getting these numbers exactly right. I made a sigil this afternoon before I divined the numbers I'd play today. In tonight's results I had 3 numbers right and the last number was 2 digits off. If I had all 4 numbers exactly right, that would have given winnings of over $4,000! So for tomorrow I will meditate before divining the numbers, then I will create yet another sigil with more exacting focus on this winning outcome, then I will psychically divine the numbers. So perhaps this time tomorrow when I come here to write my 750 words I'll have some amazing news to share with you!