750 words - day 7

 I'm experiencing a wonderful, new challenge from the Godz Above and Internal right now. I'm running out of money, don't have a job, but my faith is filling up more and more that I am a living miracle and will be blessed beyond any recognition of my own imaginations capabilities if I can just stay in the present moment, confirming that NOW is all there is and that NOW is complete and perfect. It seems like I've been learning this lesson all my life up till this RIGHT NOW, but I'm more full of understanding of the power of this sort of mental and spiritual reality believing than I've ever been before. This method of living in the present moment reveals so many secrets about how the world operates. Old belief patterns that limited our/my abilities to do the wild imaginary desires of my dreams dissolves as I just be completely here and present with all of my awareness. No more regretting the past, no more wishing things were different/better in the future. Just being completely in place here in my reality NOW.

So, back to the story about running out of money. This is a tangent of the reality I am experiencing now. I like to operate on faith. I like to challenge the Godz Above and Internal to make things appear out of the invisible. They've done it for me so many times already, and it makes me feel more like a magician. I wave the wand of my desires drawing an image with my imagination in the ether of what it is I would like to experience next, and it begins to develop in the primordial soup until it becomes solid here before me. I am now waiting for my next pet sitting assignment to pop out of the foggy soup and let me get started making more dollars! This is one of the more definite times that I've had belief in what is coming next for me, but it's been a challenging one too because I'm going thru a longer period of not knowing who it is that will hire me, or when they will appear. It's a sort of test of faith, but it's less testing than I've had before. Usually I have doubt and worry, but this time I'm practically worry/doubt free. Like 98% free. My mind wanders just a wee bit, but all I have to do is close my "eyes", the eyes that look outwardly in the world for answers and look inward to where the source of all things dwells, inside my heart and I feel the Godz Above and Internal swallow up my doubts with assured confidence.  It's quite exciting to experience!

Here's another interesting thing... There's this thing that happens in the world called Mercury Retrograde. It happens about 3 times a year and lasts for about 6 weeks. The latest one that started in mid December ends in 3 days. The thing is, I made a mental choice to not think about this event this time around. And from not thinking about it, I lifted myself above being affected by it! I have not either had any of the impacts of that thing happen to me, but even more liberating, I have not even been thinking about it at all!  I think this is a powerful lesson for me about many, many things in this world. If I don't give any thought energy to things I do not want to experience, those types of things will just fade out of my life. By not thinking about lack of money, I will not experience lack of money. By thinking more and more about the love and grace of God, I will experience more and more of it!

Okay, not sure what else to elucidate about now so rather than typing nonsensically just to hit my 750 words in one sitting (only 98 more words to go)... hmmm, well, I think I will elucidate a little bit more on these ideas.  Oh yeah, the other thing that I'm being tested by the Godz Above and Internal now is to see if I can let myself relax and enjoy some time off from work. I worked more days in December than I did in any other month of the year, so they have let me go loose in this open ended time slot between jobs where I don't know when my next starting date is to really get me to let go and relax. So far I think I'm doing pretty good at it!