the day after the brilliant flash of realization...

 

Strength, and fresh deep breaths of rebirth... after what was revealed last night. There is a new anchor of hope in place, at the place in my history where I was sent forth into the world as a young boy hungry for meaning and purpose, on my own... with a shattered heart, standing on broken ground... 20,743 days ago when my Dad was robbed from my life... I see the most clearly now that I've ever seen that what happened that day was the scenario I created for myself to experience during this lifetime... and before I was even born, I knew ahead of time that it was going to take this many long days, months and years before I would gain the realization that I have now. That it was all planned. And also that God was indeed with me every single step along the way. Last night, I reached the point in my journey where everything was spelled out for me, in crystal clarity. That doesn't mean that everything is miraculously fixed today, but now I have the power of being more hopeful, of channeling in healing for myself. Primarily I feel like sending healing to myself on that fateful day is the grandest feat I can muster now. That's what I'm starting with. We'll see, day by day now what this leads to. Okay, that's it for now, I'll post more after tonight's channeling session.

Later... well, I just finished tonight's channeling session. I'm not going to share it here. It's very different than my sessions usually go, and it dealt with some things that have me kind of stirred up now, it's going to take time for me to unravel it all... One thing that I'm going to say is that a significant feature that developed in my life is that of all the people I have in my life that I consider my best and closest, and oldest friends, I didn't meet any of them in San Leandro, where I grew up. I have zero contact with any of the people I knew in the first 12 years of my life. The people I am still friends with now, I met them all after the age of 12, and I met them all in Danville, California. 

I'll just say one other thing for this entry now, I saw a new posting on youtube by Elizabeth April. She's one of the only remote viewers that I feel like I can trust. She's got a trusted reputation, but some of the info she shares is more powerful than a lot of people can handle processing. She announced today that she remote viewed events upcoming in July that she cannot guarantee will actually happen. The potential for them to happen is on the table if the parties involved are daring enough to pull the triggers. I chose not to watch her video because I do not want to be tempted by the "fear makers" to put any of my conscious energy into "them". I have plans in July to go to Fargo to spend a week with my grandkids and their parents. If either of these potential events were to happen, it could impinge upon my plans working out. So I just don't want my mind to play with "that" at all. I'm just going to keep living my life, and keep on believing in the highest good for all mankind, and anchoring the highest frequency light of God's pure love and presence into the earth.