Acid Mothers untie the binds that prevent my freedom, yeh whatevs

 Let's start off with a spontaneous wild idea, I want to manifest an experience for myself in the future. There's a band that I feel a strong sense of affinity with that I have never seen perform live. They are going on a North American tour in the Autumn of this year. I first heard this bands music back around 2009, and they performed at The Bottom of the Hill in San Francisco on a fairly regular basis . I remember the first time I heard that they were going to perform there after I started listening to them, I imagined asking a young woman photographer /music fan friend of mine to go see them perform with me. That was a complicated can of worms in my mind, and I ended up feeling so frustrated from going through the scenarios of how I would try to entice her to attend that show with me, that I just threw my arms in the air and said to hell with it. I just won't go at all. (The "friendship" I had with that woman was overly complicated and it's like there were these literal snaky cords of confusion all knotted up between us that prevented any type of easy flowing easy going experiences to happen. Ugh, why is this coming up now tonight... I rarely think about her anymore, and any time I do this unresolved hot soup of confusion comes to the surface and I just shove her away out of my mind... --- I do know why this is coming up now, it's because I need to do a major healing for "this thang between us" to unknot it and get it out of my head and heart FOR GOOD). Maybe I should pause writing any more now and just slip into meditation to try to heal it/us now.

 

Okay I'm back. That took about 20 minutes. I did a surface level understanding healing to get this bizarre knotted up corded energy removed from the space connecting our two souls. I was so relieved to see it happen that I just kinda ran out of the room once it was finished. I didn't take time to look deeper into the Akashic Records to see what previous life connections we have. So I'm adding that to my list of tools I need to start developing when I do other types of healings similar to this one.  I partly wish I was feeling more open to sharing the full deep stories of what I'm dancing around the edges of tonight... If I were not writing this in a public space, I might feel braver... we'll see, not tonight, but I could come back to this and expand upon it.

 

Back to the beginning about the event I want to manifest; Going to see this concert !!

 

Okay so I went to their official website and found differing information than what Spotify is displaying. Spotify says they are NOT playing in San Francisco on this tour, but their official site says that THEY ARE playing at Bottom of the Hill on October 4th. Oh this entire original opening to this entry is flipped on it's head now.  I'm too tired to waste time trying to explain it just for the sake of having something/anything to write about... Will I go see them in SF? Probably not, because no one that I know here would go with me, and the whole point about the manifestation idea was to travel to Philadelphia to see them there with the one person I'm friends with that has the most similar taste in music to my own that I ha e ever known. THAT WAS MY MANIFESTATION DREAM, to go visit my good/young friend Brittney and see this band perform where she lives. IT WOULD TAKE A MANIFESTATION MIRACLE to make this happen. So there, Mister & Missus Universe, I present to you this desire, to let me have money and freedom of time go go visit Brittney for a week in October so we can see ACID MOTHERS TEMPLE perform live, and for her to give me a tour of her city, ESPECIALLY VISITING CEMETERIES AND ABANDONED INSANE ASYLUMS,   and taking several thousand photos of her to initiate her into the Cemetery Girl family!! Don't I deserve to be allowed to have a wonderful, happy event like this happen in my life?? I don't know the answer to that but I do feel like having the joy from imagining this event into reality feels good and makes me feel free!! So there, I set you free my dream vision! Go forth and be born!!

 

  this clip is quite possibly filmed just one or two years before i first desired to go see them play live!!