day two of the new restart of this blog....

 I had a flash of inspiration to record myself speaking the thoughts on my mind for this entry today, but I put that idea away pretty quickly because when I do speak aloud, I take a lot of time to say something that many other people could say very succinctly... I love to elaborate in excessive detail when I tell a story... and that's what one would find reading my "novel". that I will take an entire chapter of 10+ pages to describe a dream that I had while sleeping... so I thought, we'll I'll limit myself to 10 minutes on video to talk about the incident in 2007, and then I realized that it just wouldn't work... with the way my mind meanders recalling a tale, I'd probably never get to the finale of the story... maybe I will do this anyway, just to illustrate my point... 

and then I thought more about what to write today and debated going on with the story of yesterday's post, which I think is a little bit important, or of just letting new thoughts come thru today... I don't think I can retell that story of what happened in 2007 in as clear of detail as I did in blog posts of the past... maybe the thing to realize now is that it was so long ago that I don't feel any more pain from those people that manipulated my emotions. I don't feel any more anger towards them either. They are so far out of my memory that I don't even have pictures of them in my mind anymore. It's a blessing how time heal you of injuries if you just wait it out long enough.

So what is on my mind new and fresh today? That's of deep enough contemplation to bother writing about? Not too much actually... so we'll pretty much just let this go as having made effort to bring regularity back to my writing practice.... Not many thoughts are at the surface of my mind about participating in Nanowrimo next month, not yet at least... but I should turn up the fire under this and begin hashing out some ideas of what I would write... if I want to do it.. I'll pull some tarot cards tonight to see if I can discern any insights as to whether the endeavor would be worth my while or not...

One thing to consider about doing Nanowrimo is not being able to sit in cafes for my writing time. If the weather is cold I won't mind sitting outside at cafe tables, but if it's raining much, that will be difficult... another option is that I can go anywhere in my car and write there using wifi hotspot from my phone. That's a breakthrough idea, hooray!!! It's not entirely that I need to be at a cafe to write, its that I need to be out of my house to do it. Even now, I'm sitting in a park writing this blog entry!!