speaking of which, i dreamed lucidly this morning!
been off the psycho-meds for about 4 days now and even though normal sleep is far from being achieved, i do believe that i approached a normal dream experience this morning.
i was chatting online with a school companion yesterday afternoon who i will refer to as R~. she was quite open with me in approaching the delicate subject of my previous and disastrous interactions with M~. M~ was throwing a soirée last night in Port Costa and we discussed whether it would be ok if i were to appear. decided that it wasn't.
anyway, i dreamed just a few hours ago this morning that i was in Port Costa to see M~ and S~. it was a simple dream, simple scenery and actions that seemed to culminate with M~ and i getting on a bus together to leave the area, leaving S~ behind.
interpreting that actual scenario makes me think that i did not actually dream lucidly because this is an outcome that i would have desired before; that i cause a separation of M~ and S~. as it stands now i sadly have no intent of ever making contact with M~ again.
i may feel led to write more about this later... i was most excited that i had such a pertinent, visual, and memorable dream this morning. now after describing this for you i find that i have triggered unexpected sadness...
i was chatting online with a school companion yesterday afternoon who i will refer to as R~. she was quite open with me in approaching the delicate subject of my previous and disastrous interactions with M~. M~ was throwing a soirée last night in Port Costa and we discussed whether it would be ok if i were to appear. decided that it wasn't.
anyway, i dreamed just a few hours ago this morning that i was in Port Costa to see M~ and S~. it was a simple dream, simple scenery and actions that seemed to culminate with M~ and i getting on a bus together to leave the area, leaving S~ behind.
interpreting that actual scenario makes me think that i did not actually dream lucidly because this is an outcome that i would have desired before; that i cause a separation of M~ and S~. as it stands now i sadly have no intent of ever making contact with M~ again.
i may feel led to write more about this later... i was most excited that i had such a pertinent, visual, and memorable dream this morning. now after describing this for you i find that i have triggered unexpected sadness...
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Last updated at 11:53am on 2nd May 2007
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