THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

Last night at class - the first night of the second month in ITP3, it was a training class (as opposed to a class when we do readings).. The topic was about how to clairvoyantly read a question that a readee asks. The main emphasis was that the more we are grounded and in a state of "running our earth and cosmic energy" the more clearly we will be able to see in a person's aura what the answer to the question is. This is going to be a testimony of what information was given to me, as I ended up being the guinea pig for the class to experiment with. My seven female classmates all sat in a long row and "read me", finding answers to my question. My question was that i was wondering why I had started to feel sadness recently and I didn't know why. (Personally I did have some ideas of my own..) What they said aloud that they saw eventually led back to my original ideas.. I thought I was feeling sad because I miss getting to spend time with my best friend (long ...

More updates about my experiences at Intuitive Way. I went to the center on Thursday night, both this week and last week. It's a night that we are invited to come and participate in doing readings for other people, people that specifically come to the center to have aura readings. This was my first time to do this, last week. I was given the role of "reading the rose" of the people that came in. I had only had one other experience of doing this and it was a very short exercise we did in class. I read one of my classmate's roses - there was just enough time to read one of her past lives. My vision was clear and I really believed what I "saw". So that gave me enough confidence to trust that when put on the real role of reading someone else that I'd be able to do it. The first reading, last Thursday was with someone that has completed all of the training at IW. Not someone I had met before, but his wife is in my class and I heard her talk about him. Str...

Okay, class at Intuitive Way this week was INTENSE First off, I came very close to deciding to quit the program. As an alternative to what I would do with my time, I even went so far as to sign up for some classes at DVC... (which I may still stay enrolled in, more on that later). As it turns out, I did not quit IW last night. I almost did not go to class. If it weren't for an answer to an email from one of the owners of IW where I got a boost of confidence that I really needed to be there to face down the difficult emotions that were being stirred up, because if I don't become able to face down every dark obstacle that arises, I'm never going to grow... anyway, I'm tempted to go into personal detail about "my issue", maybe by the time I get to the end of this entry, we'll see... The topic of class last night was about working with our masculine and feminine energies. In meditation, we were led to identify where our programming about our understandings o...

I'm sorry for not telling more about what's been going on at Intuitive Way. I should be writing up all of the experiences I have there because they are so very powerful. Earlier this week I participated in my first psychic reading where I was a part of the team of readers. Maybe I'll write some about that after I write the details about what I experienced tonight. So instead of getting an "aura reading" like I had been receiving in the earlier parts of my training, now I get feedback about how well I am using the healing tools that I have been taught. I met with David, who is one of the founders of IW, and over the course of 30 minutes he checked out my abilities. Overall, I was pleased with the information he gave me. I am successfully "running energy", "blowing pictures", and have solid grounding. He told me that it appears that I am coming to terms with understanding what type of healer I am.  This little bit of confirmation that I am inde...

I had a rather profound aura reading at Intuitive Way (IW) last night. I say it may be the last reading I'll have for awhile because I'm moving into a new phase of the training where "energy readings" will be offered instead of "free readings" like I received in the first 4 months of my training. I think I'm going to miss these readings because they are so personally enlightening. They have become clearer and more pertinent as I've advanced in the training, but now, in the next phases of my training, I'm going to learn the skills of giving readings. So perhaps I'll also become able to read myself. The Reading: I haven't received my audio recording of the reading yet so I'm writing these notes from memory. A lot of shadowy energy from my ancestors appeared last night. In the first layer of my aura a bold shadow energy from my father's mother appeared (Doris Driscoll) and she was very frustrated with me over the matter of me not...

So one thing they keep finding in my aura readings is that creativity is one of the main purposes tied to why I'm alive. I'll attest to the fact and idea that my happiest experiences in life are when I'm being artistically creative. I feel the most fulfilled creating things. That they keep seeing underlying surges of potential for new creative expressions makes me hope that there will be new projects that I'll become involved with. I have some ideas of things I want to do, but for the most part my creativity feels pretty subdued these days. The height of my creative output ended around 4 or 5 years ago when I stopped doing the Cemetery Girl photography project. I tried to shift back into working on my novel after that, but that project is a painful struggle I cannot bring myself to finish. Even now, while I sit here writing this I feel that I should be working on the novel. It just feels like something that I'm never going to complete. There are so many things tha...

I want to start a small journal where I can talk about the experiences I'm having at Intuitive Way, where I'm developing my psychic abilities and clairvoyant skills. I've been taking classes here for 14 weeks now and have been having quite profound experiences. When I took my first class here called "Meditation 1" I was introduced to meditation techniques that were very different than the ways in which I was taught to meditate at Gurumayi's Siddha Yoga ashram (in Oakland). There is no central point of focus in this psychic meditation like there was in the ashram - where we were taught to discover that God was the center of reality and that it/God dwelled inside each of our own hearts. Now I am being taught mechanical methods of meditation that enable my psychic sensitivities to "see" the condition of my energetic being "more clearly". I believe that my experiences now would not be as powerful as they are if it had not been for my previo...