eclipses and twin flames, yadda yadda yadda...
Not terribly focused or inspired while sitting here scrapping my innards for thoughts to share with you... Nothing is wrong, I'm just a little "fried" from all the hype we just passed thru regarding this major eclipse that occurred on Sunday... and by "fried by hype" I mean that I invested a lot of mental and emotional energy into expecting that the eclipse would "rock my world"... not saying that it didn't, but I'm not greatly overwhelmed by how different I feel now compared to how I felt before it happened.
What did I expect to happen? Well, I was a bit hopeful of miraculous type things happening... Like having my psychic abilities honed a little more sharper... not saying that they aren't but the one practical (and selfish) device I use them with is trying to predict winning lotto numbers, I ain't no better at this than I've ever been... but this is just today...
One thing I do feel grateful for is how at peace my soul feels now. I pretty much keep to myself anymore on the internet, so I don't hear a lot of stories from very many other people about how things are going for them. A couple of people I know have been struggling with personal issues that steal away their peace of mind... I ain't go nothing like that going on. No one bugs me. I have enough comfort from worries about not having enough money to keep me from losing sleep (plus I'm not entertaining thoughts from the Devil about applying for a soul-sucking job)... so this peace of mind is fantastic.
I think one thing that may be lacking from my life experiences is the fire has gone out as far as desires I have for things I want to do in this world. I pretty much stopped dreaming about anything wonderful or beautiful (beyond what I'm already experiencing) happening in my life. No more dreaming about seeing Paris. No more dreaming about falling in love with someone again. I do still dream about having enough money to give to my son so that he can have a great life for his kids... but beyond that, I dream about eating a Chipotle burrito once or twice a week...
I was going to say something about twin flames... but maybe I'll save that for when I am more focused... Perhaps tomorrow in the library...
Comments
This post does communicate to me that you are mentally and spiritually in a good place. For me, being in a good space psychologically and spiritually is a
an ongoing process, not static. As if my life is a vessel in stream and I adjust to the flow around me to keep my vessel balanced. Which also means to be able to weather storms and the doldrums. And know they will pass as long as I hold my rudder steady.
Thom