the way of the double-cross…?

wondering tonight if i should abandon all faith in people as companions and go the way of Jesus. the dude had to be the loneliest person that has ever lived, yet he is reputed to have been the one guy that believed in everyone he met to the utmost. did his loneliness sting? was there room in his heart for it to hurt? was he entirely clueless that people didn’t dig him? is that the way to make it through this world? believe the best in everyone despite what they reflect back to you? if you can’t have a good conversation with yourself who else is going to listen…? and that time on the cross… was he smiling on the inside? because he still believed the best in everyone? despite the fact that everyone abandoned him?

i think that is what i will start doing. yet, by myself. you can’t be a friend to someone in the real world that doesn’t have time for you. in my mind though, i can adore someone to the utmost and they can’t do anything to stop me. ok, now i feel at peace.