THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

Before I get too far into this let me tell you that things have been taking amazing changes in my life over the past two months, since I began this new meditation training. I am developing my psychic skills with the intent of becoming a clairvoyant healer. Meditation is not a new thing for me, but being able to meditate is key to being able to do this invisible, inner work. Since I have been practicing meditation off and on for the past 2 decades, this elementary stage of development has been pretty easy for me. Yesterday in class, something pretty substantial occurred. I was introduced to a "healing master" that is my own personal sidekick now for doing healing works thru and with. I can't find any other traditions that talk about this type of thing occurring. I think the group I am getting my training thru has developed this kind of agreement with "spirit" to give people this unique kind of training. I'm not the first, nor last student to go through this e...

I started a new meditation class at a place that teaches people how to develop their clairvoyant abilities. Their methods are based on the practices used at The Berkeley Psychic Institute. I learned how to meditate a different way through my association with the teachings of Gurumayi Chidvilasananda and the path of Siddha Yoga. This new meditation style is very different. I just want to make some notes here about the experience I had in my class tonight. One of the goals tonight was for us to get in touch with one of our spiritual guides. I have many that I have interactions with, but the primary and supreme guide I've had awareness of for most of my life is a guardian angel. It's one being with three facets, a triune being, and I do believe it is an actual heavenly angel. I may tell more about how I came to discover this being in another posting - I may have written about it long ago too. Anyway, this being told me before that it's name is Kriskeon, and I have never forg...

This is a special story I am going to share with you today. It is about how a plant that is native to Indonesia has revolutionized how I take care of my mental health. The plant is called kratom. Farmers in southeast Asia harvest the leaves from kratom trees and grind them into a very fine powder. You can read a lot about kratom and it's history, and it's healthful benefits on the internet. A lot of people use kratom for a variety of types of health benefits. My mental health problems have been going on for nearly two decades now. I was diagnosed as being bipolar when I was 40 years old. I had a very severe mental breakdown from severe mood swings that had been going on for about a year. Thankfully, hospitalization was not required, but I was put onto a large variety of anti-depressants and mood stabilizers. Eventually, my diagnosis was changed stating that I was suffering from schizo-affective disorder and anti-psychotic medications were thrown into my pharmaceutical cocktai...

I had a dream this morning where I was in an old Asian city and I went to this wise old man for a massage. Once I laid down on his table and he began to work on me, I started to drift away mentally and all I remember seeing/feeling him do while my eyes were still open was to put some acupuncture needles into my left thigh and right bicep. Then I was out of consciousness. I could tell that his specialty was Thai massage from the one position he started to put me into as I passed out. Well, in my sense, it was late at night when I came to his stall - like 10pm, but when I came out of the deep trance his body work put me into, it was 6am when he finished. He gave me body work all night long!! I heard his wife commenting to my mother that "he must have needed it".  (I've never had a dream like that before! It was great!) then the dream took a more mundane and earthbound turn of events, i went to an outdoor music festival. i was one of the first patrons there and i got to wa...

Okay, let's try an experiment. I've been writing this story for over ten years now and it's very long. I've finally figured out a system for motivating myself to edit the story to make it ready for publication. I'm rewriting it. Dozens of people have heard about me working on this project over the past decade, and I've invited a few of them to read it - and some have! But I know that in its unedited condition it's a hard tome to struggle through, and I thank those that did read it, and I apologize to those that could not get through it. Thank you all for your efforts. Here is the experiment I want to try out now. I'm going to post one chapter at a time here in this blog while I progress with my editing. This is probably going to be what the final product will look like. I'm pretty much just going to announce updates on my Facebook page. I'm more interested in people I am close to getting to see this than I am of opening it up to the entire worl...

I don't too often come here to record my dreams, not anymore at least. I started taking Seroquel again about a month or so ago and since then I've been having dreams that I can remember. The last two nights though my dreams have been stranger  than usual. The first dream had me following along with two guys who were driving down San Ramon Valley Blvd to a destination about half way between Norris Canyon Road and Bollinger Canyon Road. That was where I identified the location to be in my mind, but there is no such building like I saw in my dream at that real life location. I don't remember exactly what it looked like now either, it's too long since I had the dream. But they were going there to kill someone. They were worried about time - that if they didn't get there in time that they'd be too late, for a bigger disaster to develop and occur. They were tense and might have been arguing. Anyway, they got to the building, got out of the car and found the people t...

Several things... some are not new; my ever-living novel, which only a couple of people have had glimpses of is still on my mind. I woke up with a new spell of inspiration to work on editing it, yet again, back in March... and then last week I had a resurgence of inspiration with an actual procedural breakthrough that gave me even more hope of finishing it. I need to get rid of these gaps of rising hope and inspiration and get a constant stream of dedication to the project. I can't give any forecast of how long this editing - now it'll actually be rewriting/editing, page by page, will take. I'll just keep letting you know here whether I'm working on it at the present moment or not. I've had a reawakened interest in reading the tarot develop. My best friend had a remarkable experience of determining that reading the tarot is her calling in life, and I've been riding a little bit on her coattails - I've bought a couple of new decks and have been trying to do...