what's on my mind these days...
Several things... some are not new; my ever-living novel, which only a couple of people have had glimpses of is still on my mind. I woke up with a new spell of inspiration to work on editing it, yet again, back in March... and then last week I had a resurgence of inspiration with an actual procedural breakthrough that gave me even more hope of finishing it. I need to get rid of these gaps of rising hope and inspiration and get a constant stream of dedication to the project. I can't give any forecast of how long this editing - now it'll actually be rewriting/editing, page by page, will take. I'll just keep letting you know here whether I'm working on it at the present moment or not.
I've had a reawakened interest in reading the tarot develop. My best friend had a remarkable experience of determining that reading the tarot is her calling in life, and I've been riding a little bit on her coattails - I've bought a couple of new decks and have been trying to do readings every day. There is a book with 365 Tarot Readings in it, one for every day of the year. I've been following it rather closely. I have been posting the readings on an unknown tumblr blog that I keep - maybe I'll start to cross post them here.
I had a dream about 10 days ago where I saw myself going back to massage school in Emeryville. Everyone in the dream was so full of hope and love and were glowing with inner light that I have not felt in some time, and I woke up really missing massage, the old gift that I had trained so hard to learn how to do- i missed being able to give it and to receive it. I woke up feeling refreshed and inspired and wondering what it would take for me to go back and do the training at NHI all over again. Even if I weren't going to practice for a business, just so that I could have the experience of being in that loving atmosphere again. Add this to my big wish list of things that seem impossible in this life...
Like going to Paris... although I may really need to find a way to get myself to Ireland this year because my son and his wife are having a baby around November... I've been thinking about finding ways to make and save money, like this job that I've wanted forever working as a Park Aide on Mt. Diablo - I applied way back in November and they finally called me in for an interview last week. They are just looking for seasonal help during the summer months, but I feel like even doing a simple job like this is too complicated for my life with my needing to be available to take care of my mom. She's 87 and in very good health, but she's not well enough to take care of herself, and a big part of what i do for her is to keep her active and get her out of the house... when I had my jobs last year we saw that I did not have enough energy left in my free time to give her proper attention... and that is what i fear would be the case if I got this job... so now, I am not sure how I'm going to get the money... but if it's meant to be, something is going to happen...
Another thing that's been on my mind recently is an idea about doing an online business of burning spell candles for people, like on Fiverr or Etsy. It's something that I have done for friends and family members a lot over the past few years and I think it's something there is a need for, in the case of people that are not able to burn candles for themselves... I just need a little bit more encouragement from spirit that this is a good thing for me to do. Okay I said a whole lot more here than I thought I would.
I've had a reawakened interest in reading the tarot develop. My best friend had a remarkable experience of determining that reading the tarot is her calling in life, and I've been riding a little bit on her coattails - I've bought a couple of new decks and have been trying to do readings every day. There is a book with 365 Tarot Readings in it, one for every day of the year. I've been following it rather closely. I have been posting the readings on an unknown tumblr blog that I keep - maybe I'll start to cross post them here.
I had a dream about 10 days ago where I saw myself going back to massage school in Emeryville. Everyone in the dream was so full of hope and love and were glowing with inner light that I have not felt in some time, and I woke up really missing massage, the old gift that I had trained so hard to learn how to do- i missed being able to give it and to receive it. I woke up feeling refreshed and inspired and wondering what it would take for me to go back and do the training at NHI all over again. Even if I weren't going to practice for a business, just so that I could have the experience of being in that loving atmosphere again. Add this to my big wish list of things that seem impossible in this life...
Like going to Paris... although I may really need to find a way to get myself to Ireland this year because my son and his wife are having a baby around November... I've been thinking about finding ways to make and save money, like this job that I've wanted forever working as a Park Aide on Mt. Diablo - I applied way back in November and they finally called me in for an interview last week. They are just looking for seasonal help during the summer months, but I feel like even doing a simple job like this is too complicated for my life with my needing to be available to take care of my mom. She's 87 and in very good health, but she's not well enough to take care of herself, and a big part of what i do for her is to keep her active and get her out of the house... when I had my jobs last year we saw that I did not have enough energy left in my free time to give her proper attention... and that is what i fear would be the case if I got this job... so now, I am not sure how I'm going to get the money... but if it's meant to be, something is going to happen...
Another thing that's been on my mind recently is an idea about doing an online business of burning spell candles for people, like on Fiverr or Etsy. It's something that I have done for friends and family members a lot over the past few years and I think it's something there is a need for, in the case of people that are not able to burn candles for themselves... I just need a little bit more encouragement from spirit that this is a good thing for me to do. Okay I said a whole lot more here than I thought I would.
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