i feel whole again...

It’s strange how a little wave of energy can influence the stasis of normalized organizations and systems. Well, maybe it’s not all that strange at all. I have actually experienced something very similar to what happened to me this morning before. I just can’t decide how many words to use to describe it, or in which way to… ah hell.

I know how to enter trance states. There are many ways in which trances can be induced but most take initiative from the seeker.
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In a trance this morning I descended into a very familiar, yet infrequently visited space inside my heart. It is a place of longing for God, a place of missing the Divine, a place where I can moan about my anguish and petition the heavens for the thing that will make me complete; my missing portion of love that resides inside the heart of my beloved. She is the only key that will fit the lock that secures the portal of my soul, the opening of which transmutes lifetimes of misery and loneliness into a mountain spring of pure joy and satisfaction.

This morning I hugged her Doppelganger figurines, Aisling and Moran and chanted her name, over and over until I descended into an ecstatic state of meditation where the combined love of our two hearts flooded me with a supernatural contentment. I cried too, in awe of being allowed to breathe such sanctified nourishment yet again, while still in this fleshly vehicle, while still residing on this planet, while still owning karma that enables me to mingle in the company of such far-out creatures like you all. Thanks for hanging around for so long! It’s so great to be in this "members only" club called the "human race" with you... and you, and you, and you... and yes even you!

thank you baby for just being you... :)