college blues...

on top of everything else that i feel that i cannot do as of late (lost all desire to do photography, cannot write/finish my novel), now i can add to the list that i feel unable to muster up the belief in myself to become mentally powerful enough to overcome the obstacles that prevent me from returning to college to complete my college degree.

ugh, i can't even concentrate enough to write this ... more later. things are getting dark all around me...

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