just to let you know...

things have changed since i wrote the last entry, already. i really do have the very best friend in my life now, the very best I've ever had and I am deeply in a mysterious swoon of spellbinding connection with her. we had a long talk last night about "things", and she helped soothe my discontent, in ways that I believe only she could have done. i had been in a sliding path of doom, and even though she was still around and hanging out with me, it took the soul-breaking despair that i fell into to be able to confront it. now i feel reawakened and have swung around back into place where my plans of a hopeful future are alive. i have a desire of a plan and by god, i'm gonna do it or die.... later, hahaha