she broke this week...

just want to document that my dear friend had the strongest break in her spirit occur this week, during the time that i've known her, at least. was it an emotional breakdown? by medical terms? i don't know, but by all other signs, yes, she broke down emotionally. she was so heavily burdened by a thousand tons of emotions that were crushing her heart and soul and she was fighting with her mind to stay alive, to find a way to keep alive to keep on living. I've never seen such determination in anyone, ever. At least not in someone I've known personally. she entered the hospital about 50 hours ago to get emergency care and i don't know when I'll hear from her again. i get snippets of info through the grapevine but until i hear from her directly i won't truly know how she is doing. it's a real turning point, in so many ways for her, but it's also a point where she is going to be taken deeper into the realities of having to deal realistically with all the aspects of her mental health that she's refused to face up to before now. and it's not going to be an easy journey. if she didn't reach this point where she now has the possibility to heal and become strong, she would have died. very soon from now, she most certainly would have died. i just hope that the strong voice she discovered will not go quiet and that she will tell all that pulled her down before to stay the fuck away from her.