i have received the greatest gift this week...

i've been in need of, and in search of a writing mentor for a number of years now, and well, this week she found me. she is offering all of the support that i have hungered for. the companionship and attention i have believed would help me obtain the focus i need to get focused enough to pour out this novel, and finish writing it. how she has the time for me, i do not understand. maybe she is intrigued by my story and would like to be able to read it. i think she does this for others too, as she is a professional writer and teacher. i just feel blessed that i've slipped into her camp and that she appreciates what i have brainstormed so far, and that she shares a sense of both belief and expectation in me, that i can and will finish this project.

in a way, this is evidence of me shifting into a high gear of manic activity, and i know that i should be wary of over extending myself. i am pulling back the reigns on the photo project, which i clearly have already overextended myself on. this is a good thing. out of the 100 women that i want to photograph, i have moved into the 70's with. so it is ok to lessen the pressure there. it will be okay to not photograph 5 or 6 models a month for awhile. i will keep my appointments with whoever i am currently scheduled with but i will stop seeking out new models for awhile.

so right now, Shah, my mentor, wants me to work on the structure/outline of my novel. i see the benefit of this. and i really have it all formed already. i just need to get it out on paper. then i will be able to start letting the chapters flow out.