video blog - "kill all the psychiatrists" (no, not really!)
if you listened to the whole thing, thank you. if you listened and can encourage me, thank you even more.
ok, ok - i'll write something...
Sometimes I hate the laws of karma that bind me to this reality so much. I hate living in a place that suffers this heat in the summertime so badly too and would gladly pay in slave labor to be able to live in Santa Cruz, or some other affable place near a pleasant seashore that would soothe my body... and my soul. I don't know why I'm not allowed to live in Santa Cruz. When Billy and I became able to live there from 1995 to 1998 it was like we had won a huge lottery, like I had worked my way out of an enormous prison sentence and I was given a liberty to experience freedom from the previous 35 years of junk-karma I had created for myself. Was it the benefits of hard work? Or luck? Or karmic justice? Now I cannot even afford the price of a tank of gas for a day trip to Santa Cruz and my body aches so much from the mental woes and worries my mental disease inflicts me with, I'm afraid that if I got into the 50 degree waters for 30 minutes of body surfing that my musc...
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As for the 'girl'-- just take things slow, there's no hurry -- I think that's the best way...get to know each other and just see what transpires...
What happens if you stop taking your medication? If whatever happens then is manageable & acceptable to you, why do you think your therapist is so keen that you stay on it?
If you do need the medication, is it that you've been prescribed with too strong a dose? What's your problem with it?
What does your therapist say when you tell her you don't want to be on the medication?
Since it appears you were having similar issues with your last therapist, it seems clear that it isn't a matter of changing therapists but of either coming to terms with the medication, or making an adjustment in the way you're describing your problems with it.
Just wanting your happiness because you are such a great guy,
Amy