THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

 New year, new hope, new holes to dig out of too. This, this right now, this today, this month... I am face to face with the unknown because for the first time that I can remember, maybe ever, I don't have an assurance of how I'm going to get thru this month monetarily. For literally ever I have always felt a safety net around me knowing that there was going to be enough money to carry me through until the next month. But now, due to the raising costs of EVERYTHING (national inflation), that safety net has been shrinking, and well, NOW it has shrunk into a noose around my neck/wallet. Today is the 5th day of the month and I've gotten my first warning from my bank that I have insufficient funds to meet my transaction needs. I have been overdrawn before, but this is bigger and deeper. This is the raw face of God staring me down saying, "What are you going to do now, dude?" With the ongoing journey of coming to understand and bring into reality the balance of my astr...

 I've been praying for a number of years for a long-lost friend I had in high school. I have mentioned her here in this blog on several occasions. She was my first high school crush. We were sophomores when we met. Nearly 50 years ago when we first me, 49 years to be exact. And I've shared in these pages how I've searched all possible sources of the internet to find trace of her life, and have found no evidence of her still being alive. So over the past few years I've just started to assume that she has passed on and is no longer living. Oddly, there have also been no information about her death/burial that I could find either, and no one that is still living from those high school years have any contact info to share with her.  So I have started to make efforts to contact her on the other side. Scattered efforts, hit and miss doing my own versions of what I think are meditation tools to suss out the dead. Regadless of what my past efforts have garnered as results, I FI...

 One thing I love about how my life has turned out to be, up to this moment in time, is how I am able to be present in the current moment, and not be bothered or fixated on the past or the future. I am also becoming able to forget about events. I do happen to know that on this date of the year, it's considered to be New Year's Eve, but to me, it really is just another day. I'm becoming able to experience every single new progressing moment as the beginning of the rest of my life. I don't need to wait for January 1st to arrive to start living my life better. It's ALWAYS New Life Day, in this very second, this very moment. Not in 4 hours from now. And certainly not 4 hours ago. It's like time stops moving when you pull all of your mind's activities right into being HERE, and observing what is happening, and doing whatever you feel moved to do. Yeahhh, I really like life being like this. I'm also up to an age where my responsibilities to the world are scant...

 Well, I gave up on doing New Moon intentions about a year ago. My thoughts just aren't organized enough to think about what it is I need (to manifest) in my life, I never write down what my intentions were, so later if anything did happen, or change, I didn't have a record to prove that it worked... and overall, I'm just pretty much okay with things happening the ways that they do. So why am I thinking about trying it again, now, today? Maybe because I've started listening to an astrologer that makes more sense to me, and who moves me more on an intellectual basis... A thinking man's/woman's astrologer... he didn't even suggest the idea of setting intentions with this new moon (that occurred around 3pm yesterday)... but something arose inside me making me feel like it might be worth trying... So here's what I'm going to do. And it's different than just making a list of wishes... I'm just descending into my heart (with my consciousness) to li...

  So this is a new endeavor I’m exploring. Going to try to channel some information about an event that occurred, somewhere, sometime in recent history. I know literally no information about the details of what happened. I do know that a murder occurred, and this is what I’m hoping to garner details about... I came upon this idea to try to “channel while writing” just recently, so let’s see how this goes. I see this as only an exercise that will get me more active in writing again, and stretch and develop my channeling skills. So I’ve already grounded and connected to the energetic essence of “this occurrence”... now I’m just going to begin writing spontaneously allowing ideas, a voice, and descriptions to develop on their own... I already feel like it’s “the house” that the murders occurred in that wants to share its insights with and thru me. A house is a physical construct, but it is also constructed of “energy”... It vibrates with energy, it IS energy, and it absorbs the energy...

 I had some quite enlightened thoughts and ideas flowing into my mind after I finished writing what I shared here last night. One theme that came in was the idea of how I can use this form of creative writing as a form of psychic channeling... I believe that I enter into an altered state of consciousness when I write. I begin my writing sessions by making an effort to connect with my very specific writing muses, I ask them to infect me with the energies that affected them when they were able to write their most poignant pieces of literature... but it goes beyond that too, they are not finite beings, they are gateway beings that tap into and channel the Greater Muse that inspires all creators. But when the Greater Muse flows into and through my personal muses, the energy of inspiration that reaches me is flavored with the life energies of these few humans that have greatly inspired me with the words they have commited to literature... So the bigger idea I was toying with last night ...

 blahablahahahahalblaaahbiddelyblahhhhh i don't know what to write about right now, but I'm sitting here in a cafe and it's what I do when I'm in cafes... sometimes I don't even decide to goto a cafe until I know I have a topic to explore, but today I came to a cafe becuase my best friend said she had time to a cafe, and did I want to come, and yes, of course, I wanted to meet her there... she and I used to cafe sooooo much in the early years of our friendship, aside from cemeteries, cafes were the central place that we would meet to spend time together...  I just scrubbed my memory to figure out how long we've been friends, we met pretty close to 11 years and 6 months ago... anyway... what else is going on? I did a LOT of walking last week, and using the Strava app my mileage was recorded; nearly 20 miles! A new incentive is using another phone app called RANDONAUTICA... it's a little tricky getting that app to work properly... like, it needs a data connect...