almost signed up for substack today but i don't want followers clouding up my peace of mind

 

I feel like trying something new to make note of my thoughts and experiences but I'm tired of having to make everything attractive to the world. I don't care what anyone out there thinks anymore about what I have to share, and this that I'm writing here and now, even though I will share it with my best friend, Scarlett, I like using the technology to make something pretty to make record of my time. So what I'm thinking now is that I'll just post a couple of photos that I took in a day and see what or how they inspire me to say more... Like, if I had written yesterday I would have spoken about all of the creative project ideas that I came up with. I came up with ideas for 3 new, specific bumper stickers I'd like to design. I even got the AI to create a mock-up based on the idea, which sadly, those mock ups were so beautiful I thought I'd just use them, but everyone that would see them would know they were AI generated. I do want to create the images by hand, I'm just not very good at making images like that... with software, and drawing involved... etc. But I'm going to try. I'm going to stick to the ideas and find the wherewithal to push through and create them. I will put them up for sale online in Etsy! Or Spreadshop! T-shirt designs in Spreadshop, that's the next project too. So yeah, this is the kinda talking I guess I'll do here. Not the kind of thing you'd post in a public forum like I was thinking of doing earlier... I mean, I could make it something more interesting to the public if I were to talk about depression or whatever... but I'm not. Okay, gonna end this now and find the photos I want to insert here.

(beginning idea for a bumper sticker...)

I forgot to mention that I was toying with ideas last night, very early this morning rather, it was 2 or 3am and I was so lit up with inspiration, I found a new website called zeenster that gives you templates for designing and printing zines... I came closer last night to starting to get my fingers into that pie of creativity than I've felt like doing in ages.  I just need this to become and stay consistent. I need to do a little bit every day, climb up the tree of accomplishment higher and higher until I have results in my hands. Again, not like I'm going to do anything to share them other than let Scarlett see them. And create a collection of things to leave behind as evidence of who and what I was for the grandkids to find and possess one day. Okay I think that is all for now today yes, that's it. Might decide to cross post this in my Blogger.

 Went for a walk in the local woods, wanting to visit with the owls, and saw these amazing mushrooms. I heard 2 owls at far ends of the woods but didn't see them. I listened to Scarlett's songs on my walk and felt so healed by them.