Wednesday, wheeeee ;)

 I've had some updated adjustments happen to my consciousness regarding all the things I'm thinking about these days. One of my meditation tools that I need to remember to use more often is astral traveling. For right now, it's the most powerful method for me to get nearly instant answers to questions I'm struggling with. The great thing is that my AT journeys usually only take 3-5 minutes... sometimes they'll go longer, like 10-20 minutes if I'm in need of more involved healing or to get a larger template download.

So I just did a 4-5 minute AT session to get some clarity about the mental rigamarole that I'm juggling now about this idea of going back to "legit job work"... So today, just from normal activities (dog walking, visiting a friend at the park) my body feels like it's been knocked around by a schoolyard bully. I have sore joints and my back has got sharp stabbing pains... nothing TOO unusual for my lifestyle... but it alerted me because it is sore in a way that I would be if I had gone for a 5-mile hike in the hills. This is a telltale sign that I am experiencing ascension growth growing pains... Schumann Resonances could be part of the culprit, even though the energies flowing in today are not that intense... There was a large surge of SR energies yesterday, during the 06062022 gateway portal that brought in energies... I had some other experiences today that also felt like afterburn from yesterday's portal... synchronicity type experiences... Which is all good. It's all part of doing this work of anchoring the new energies here on earth for everyone to begin to benefit from. Procuring and disseminating this knowledge to the masses is a big aspect of what my non-professional work in this world is centered around. I am not a publicly vocal disseminator, I work behind the scenes... this is a great aspect of being able to live my life as privately as I do, I can spend as much time in a given day as I'm able to, to spend in meditation and focused healing modes. 

And this is what I believe I received in the astral travel journey I did about 20 minutes ago. I was reminded that everything that's going to happen has already been decided (to a degree)... and that I just need to stop projecting worry and doubt into the mixture. The more that I can attain a state of calm belief that I will always be taken care of, the greater will be the unfolding of the things I deeply desire to have happen. Also, I keep my focus in prayer set as, may whatever happens be for my highest good. Bring about the solution that is for my highest good, Dear Lord.

When I remember back to when I worked for WF, 7 years ago, I recall that I was younger and stronger than I am now. I'm not in poor health right now, but I am not super fit either. 8 hour long shifts, 3-4 of those a week... are going to exhaust me. I'm not saying that I'm not up for trying to do it, this is my statement to the universe right now, if it serves my highest good, I'll do my best to succeed at it. I do fear the pattern of what happened in 2018 happening again. Two jobs that each lasted 2-3 months burnt me out. I'm not so dense that I cannot see the obvious pattern here for my body's capabilities at this stage of my life, but I can't find any other answers, beyond what I'm already doing (working as a pet sitter) that can fulfill this need to earn money to survive (and travel) with. What I'd love to be able to do is just go back to Door Dashing, but without my SmartCar getting repaired, I cannot afford the gas money to Door Dash in my station wagon.

I'm not sharing any break through realizations here in this blog entry, just more talking about loud, and sadly, more speaking from the position of defeated underdog. I'll see what happens if I start doing even more astral travel journeying in my days... maybe more journeying will bring about a tidal wave of new belief in myself that miracles of some type will occur.