Tuesday tra-la-la...

 So today I applied for ANOTHER job online... to work at Trader Joe's. Still have not heard anything from WF, and TJ says it may take 3 weeks before I'll hear from them. Thursday afternoon is my phone interview with the security company... Interestingly, I had a question-asking session with my pendulum just a few minutes ago... asked if I'll be offered a job at WF, or TJ, and the pendulum swung indifferently (which means that as of now, the answer is unknown). I then asked if I should keep playing the lotto game I've been obsessed with lately, and the pendulum immediately swung NO. The lottery is such a deep font of addictive, enjoyable fantasy thinking... the pleasure one gets from simply being able to imagine what one would do with such riches is practically orgasmic. It's a cheap thrill to toss a dollar into the "pool" and be allowed to "dream big"... Is it a waste of time doing this? Perhaps it genuinely is. I know I'm one day closer to the end of my time on this planet... and I'm starting to think more practically about how I use all of my moments... A moment spent "dreaming" about something that is highly unlikely to occur could have been spent meditating on God, or praying for the well-being of others... Isn't that a bit of fair logic to exercise?

What's more interesting to me is to see how this is all going to play out. I know that my guardian angels will not abandon me into poverty... well, I don't know that 100%, I'm just going on how things have played out so far in my life. They've not abandoned me into poverty YET, so my hopes are that this will continue to be their plans for my future... Plus, I'm exhibiting willingness right now to go back into the workforce and take on the title and yoke of an employee... I guess this is enough talk about that topic for now.

I have more things that I want to talk about that I thought about today, but I'm really tired tonight and might have to save them for tomorrow. Perhaps in the morning I'll return and continue here...