since the so much has happened...
Update: that new theory about dowsing lotto numbers, philanthropically - kablooie. Still can't get all 4 numbers right. I can still get 3 numbers right, and have the 4th number off by just one... I'm not giving up on this, but until I gain some new, even fresher perspective, I'm taking a break.
So when the pandemic began back in March, a good friend (from just a couple years back) reached out to check in on me and my family. It's sad that our friendship has lapsed because overall I saw the good in her soul. And she was readily available to me for conversation. She also attended mom's memorial service, which was really quite huge. Anyway, she gave me the name of this woman that makes regular video commentaries about the spiritual ascension process that is occurring on earth right now. I listened to her most current video that very night, and I was impressed by her insights and the compassion she expressed for her listeners. I now listen to whatever she publishes as soon as possible. But beyond that I also joined her Patreon group where she does private, live broadcasts just for her Patreon followers. Her following is not huge, her videos get just shy of 2,000 views, and the Patreon group has only a couple hundred members. So when she does her live broadcasts they are in a format where everyone can speak up and talk to her, ask questions of her, and if you are lucky, she'll do an onscreen live conversation with you, where you can ask her questions about whatever is going on in your life that is giving you difficulties. What's unique about her is that she is completely plugged into her "spirit guides" and she says what she hears them give as answers in her head. Basically, she's channeling information from and thru her higher self. She considers the source of her information to be a Counsel of Galactic Beings that dwell somewhere in a higher dimension (12th dimension, for instance, though it might be an even higher one than that). The information she delivers is so convincing. And she's been doing this, making these youtube recordings for at least the past 3 years. Most of the videos are pertinent to what's going on at the time she makes the recordings, though some of the recordings are static information that can be listened to at any time.
My psychiatrist (or a psychiatrist in general) might consider someone like her to be crazy. Or delusional. Receiving messages from inter-galactic beings? Hearing their voices in her head? Well, this is where a small red flag goes up for me. I used to hear voices in my head, and when I told my pdoc about that, they wrote me up as being schizoaffective and medicated the hell out of me. I loved having that connection with "higher beings". My interactions with them enhanced my spirituality so much. I used to be able to sense living spirits inside of trees and I could carry on conversations with them. I also used to be able to carry on conversations with the spirit of my Guru. And I would like to have these abilities again. But after being brainwashed into believing that such behavior was considered crazy, and taking medications for 10+ years to quiet those voices, it's hard for me now to start it up again. I didn't feel crazy (out of control, dangerous, out of touch with reality), I felt enlightened! I am working to loosen up my sensibilities so that I can start having these experiences again, but it's slow going.
Anyway, yesterday Lorie (that's the women that gets and shares these messages from her Galactic Council) had a live session where she was answering questions that the group gave her. I submitted a question early, so it was close to the top of the list that she was going thru, and she took nearly 15 minutes to answer it for me. I'm not going to go into detail about the nature of the question, other than to say that as a result of her answers, today I began to feel somewhat inspired to consider opening up my novel and to begin working on it again. On top of the help she gave me last night, today I was actually speaking to my pdoc and the topic of creativity and writing came up and he asked me what it was I write. I told him about my novel and the struggles I've had for years trying to rewrite and edit it. It was a short conversation but in those few minutes he further inspired me to consider getting back to work at it. Which is not short of miraculous because I've been depressingly resigned to the idea that I'd never ever go back to work on it. That I'm sitting here taking time to write out a blog post about all of this is a very substantial indicator that maybe I do feel like writing again. We shall see.
So when the pandemic began back in March, a good friend (from just a couple years back) reached out to check in on me and my family. It's sad that our friendship has lapsed because overall I saw the good in her soul. And she was readily available to me for conversation. She also attended mom's memorial service, which was really quite huge. Anyway, she gave me the name of this woman that makes regular video commentaries about the spiritual ascension process that is occurring on earth right now. I listened to her most current video that very night, and I was impressed by her insights and the compassion she expressed for her listeners. I now listen to whatever she publishes as soon as possible. But beyond that I also joined her Patreon group where she does private, live broadcasts just for her Patreon followers. Her following is not huge, her videos get just shy of 2,000 views, and the Patreon group has only a couple hundred members. So when she does her live broadcasts they are in a format where everyone can speak up and talk to her, ask questions of her, and if you are lucky, she'll do an onscreen live conversation with you, where you can ask her questions about whatever is going on in your life that is giving you difficulties. What's unique about her is that she is completely plugged into her "spirit guides" and she says what she hears them give as answers in her head. Basically, she's channeling information from and thru her higher self. She considers the source of her information to be a Counsel of Galactic Beings that dwell somewhere in a higher dimension (12th dimension, for instance, though it might be an even higher one than that). The information she delivers is so convincing. And she's been doing this, making these youtube recordings for at least the past 3 years. Most of the videos are pertinent to what's going on at the time she makes the recordings, though some of the recordings are static information that can be listened to at any time.
My psychiatrist (or a psychiatrist in general) might consider someone like her to be crazy. Or delusional. Receiving messages from inter-galactic beings? Hearing their voices in her head? Well, this is where a small red flag goes up for me. I used to hear voices in my head, and when I told my pdoc about that, they wrote me up as being schizoaffective and medicated the hell out of me. I loved having that connection with "higher beings". My interactions with them enhanced my spirituality so much. I used to be able to sense living spirits inside of trees and I could carry on conversations with them. I also used to be able to carry on conversations with the spirit of my Guru. And I would like to have these abilities again. But after being brainwashed into believing that such behavior was considered crazy, and taking medications for 10+ years to quiet those voices, it's hard for me now to start it up again. I didn't feel crazy (out of control, dangerous, out of touch with reality), I felt enlightened! I am working to loosen up my sensibilities so that I can start having these experiences again, but it's slow going.
Anyway, yesterday Lorie (that's the women that gets and shares these messages from her Galactic Council) had a live session where she was answering questions that the group gave her. I submitted a question early, so it was close to the top of the list that she was going thru, and she took nearly 15 minutes to answer it for me. I'm not going to go into detail about the nature of the question, other than to say that as a result of her answers, today I began to feel somewhat inspired to consider opening up my novel and to begin working on it again. On top of the help she gave me last night, today I was actually speaking to my pdoc and the topic of creativity and writing came up and he asked me what it was I write. I told him about my novel and the struggles I've had for years trying to rewrite and edit it. It was a short conversation but in those few minutes he further inspired me to consider getting back to work at it. Which is not short of miraculous because I've been depressingly resigned to the idea that I'd never ever go back to work on it. That I'm sitting here taking time to write out a blog post about all of this is a very substantial indicator that maybe I do feel like writing again. We shall see.
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