THIS Rhett Butler Will Never Die

 I can honestly say that I do not understand what is going on in my life, or in the world right now. I have been swallowed into a void of disconnect where it doesn't seem how hard I try to devise a plan for new directions to follow, nothing sticks. Nothing I reach for to hold onto holds. No new visions or inspirations to chase and manifest are appearing. It's VERY weird right now and the only thing I can start to shine light on is that we are in a very intense astrological configuration right now where 6 planets are currently in retrograde. This type of configuration does not happen very often. 5 planets were in simultaneous retrograde back in the early 80s, but the last time 6 planets retrograded together was in 1943. I am only a fan of astrology so I can't explain in any clear sense what this all means, other than it's weird, complex, and rare. How anyone else is managing right now in their lives, well, I'd be curious to hear... I know that my closest friends are ...

 So let's just see what comes out... it's just kinda laughably ridiculous how quickly things can change in life. I'm just glad that life has developed me so well that I can pretty much just roll with the flow/blows that are dealt to me, and I get back up on my feet rather quickly.  I thought for sure that the gig at Whole Foods was going to have me set for a good long stretch of life. I was going to make more money for less effort than any other gig I've been working at for years now. And I thought I read all the signs correctly and that I was making the right choice in getting this job. But Ye Gods had something different in mind and I was forcibly exited from that position after just being there for 3 weeks. And what are my new plans? Thankfully Ye Gods picked me up and placed me into 2 really good-paying pet sitting jobs, which might enable me to put aside enough money for a trip to Minnesota at the end of October. There are so many things that can happen (see above)...

 Dear Friends, I am heartbroken to tell you about what has happened, but I ended up injuring myself at my new job (Whole Foods) and have left being an employee for the company. I left on good terms and they told me that after I complete physical therapy (at the end of August), if I want my job back, they'll rehire me.  How did this happen? Being old and out of shape is one explanation. Being over enthusiastic and wanting to impress everyone with a good attitude is another explanation. My bipolar "mania" rose it's smiling, ugly head and my enthusiasm caused me to damage the muscles in my shoulders (to the point where I was unable to lift my arms for several days straight). Anyway, I'm getting away from the deeper message here.  I was so excited about this job and how willing they were to work with the limitations I presented them with. I had a ceiling on the amount of money I could earn in a month ($970 a month is the limit Social Security allows me to make without...

 Wow, something really has changed, in my world and life, at least. Today I feel such a deep feeling in my bones of solidity and anchored presence. It's like all the years of yearning for things to be better are starting to develop and manifest. I just have this newfound sense of being in the right place at the right time and I feel assured more than ever, that everything really is going to work out fine. I'm not sure how I want to expound on these sensations I'm experiencing... Firstly though, I have to state that getting rehired at Whole Foods feels like one of the best chess moves I've made with my life and intentions in a very long time. I can't wait to see what will begin to happen once I start my official hours working there tomorrow morning. Backing up a few steps, I do need to give credit to the solidity of my meditation practice now. It's always been an exciting form of self-care for me, to meditate when it's convenient, but now it's advanced to...

 I had odd feelings rise up these past couple of days before the moon went full early this morning. When I was driving home from the pet sitting job I did last week, I had a strange sense of feeling like, well, that's the end of that line of work. I have only two, weekend assignments left on my calendar. All of the other jobs scheduled through December are now canceled, and no one new has approached me to sit for them. Which is very strange for this time of year. BUT, something else has arisen to fill that space... more on that in a moment. Driving home that night I also felt the hugeness of how much I really do miss my mom, and Aine... and Billy and the grandkids... getting older, with fewer people in your life, fewer anchors of those that love and trust and somewhat know you the best, it's an adaptation I had never really thought about ahead of time before... Maybe this comes from having a smaller family... I have been missing people since early on though, so it's not ent...

 I watched two hours of a zoom conference today that was hosted by The Society for Scientific Exploration. The topic was Parapsychology. There were individuals speaking from various professional, and collegiate associations that do extensive research into the paranormal. I had so many thoughts run through my mind and jolts of psychic electricity bouncing around between my skull and my heart. One of the speakers was a noted Bay Area parapsychologist and college professor, Loyd Auerbach. I learned about it and first contacted Auerbach about 6 years ago. Back when Scarlett and I first started to attend HCH in Lafayette. Loyd had been teaching a workshop/classes about the paranormal and when I read the flier describing his abilities and what the classes were about, I decided that I had to sign up for it.  Turns out that the brochure I read was from the last time he taught the course, 2 years prior. But I was able to obtain his email address from the brochure and I wrote to him, as...

 I've had some updated adjustments happen to my consciousness regarding all the things I'm thinking about these days. One of my meditation tools that I need to remember to use more often is astral traveling. For right now, it's the most powerful method for me to get nearly instant answers to questions I'm struggling with. The great thing is that my AT journeys usually only take 3-5 minutes... sometimes they'll go longer, like 10-20 minutes if I'm in need of more involved healing or to get a larger template download. So I just did a 4-5 minute AT session to get some clarity about the mental rigamarole that I'm juggling now about this idea of going back to "legit job work"... So today, just from normal activities (dog walking, visiting a friend at the park) my body feels like it's been knocked around by a schoolyard bully. I have sore joints and my back has got sharp stabbing pains... nothing TOO unusual for my lifestyle... but it alerted me beca...